A year full of memories, over...

Peace be upon you, readers. ^^

*chuckles* looks like...this year, 2009, is about to be over. In a about half an hour. Currently watching "High School Musical - The Concert" on Disney Channel(channel 615 on Astro). Heh, I know, I know...

Childish eh??

Well, it reminds me of the past. Many things that had happened to me, things that had made me more mature, more knowledgable about this world...* happily sighs* I guess...I had been a bit of a jerk when I was younger. Naive would be the correct word... *chuckles softly* ^_^

*sighs* huh, I don't know what else to write...maybe i should put in my thought a bit...

Ok, you see... I am really going to miss my school days. I'm going to Japan next year for my AFS(ABM) year program, so I'll be missing everyone here. Especially...her...

But of course, she has someone else. I wouldn't want to interfere... When someone is already owned, I would step aside...

I guess that's it about my feelings for her. By finishing writing this, the feeling will be buried down. Deep in my heart. And I think I'm happy about it... ^^

OK...5 mins left for 2009.

I'm going to stop writing now, and I pray, hope and wish, that next year would be a better year for me... :)

*chuckles* well, this is it...

Happy new year guys...^^

~Cheers,

Mohd. Firdaus "Ben" Khalili

[ Forgotten Butler ]

31 December 2009.

Just another post...

hey guys...
let me just put what i'm currently thinking here and redo it again...
- i feel kinda nervous going aboard...
- want to do things..but always procrastinating...i hate it...
- i...kinda miss her...*sigh*
will update more here...like my other posts too...

*sigh* looks like I'm gonna miss out on this year...

Hey guys... =__=;;

Not feeling very good today. Went cycling yesterday, almost half a day gone..got back really tired...still am though...

Well, I'm just gonna say this first. This year I won't be going ComicFiesta...I have this AFS briefing in PJ on the 19th to 21st December.

*sigh* man....I was looking forward of going this year...but out of the blue...that came out... =__+;;
will update more on this..

One chapter closed, another is about to open...

Hey guys ^^ Guess what??

SPM has finally finished~!!! XDDDD

*jumps around joyfully*

ahem... *calms down*

The biggest battle is about to begin.

Well, looks like the final battle is about to start...

Tomorrow is the start of SPM(Sijil Pelajaran Malaysia) which is the first stepping stone in my life. Life after school...

Feeling a bit..scared...

Yeah, well..that's what a person will feel...the pressure...

I thought, "Hey, if this is it... Then its best that I write a least a proper post this time. ^^".

And yeah, so it seems to be like it. Finally writing a proper one(YEAH~~!!! XD). It might be short, but oh well...
If anyone wants to know my timetable, here it is :-

SPM Timetable

Wednesday(18 November 2009)

• - BM1 [ 8.00am - 10.15am]
• - History1 [11.00am - 12.00 noon]
• - Bm2 [2.00pm - 4.30pm]

Thursday(19 NOvember 2009)

• -BI1 [8.am - 9.45 pm]
• -BI2 [10.30am - 12.45pm]
• -HIstory2 [2.00pm - 4.30pm]

Friday(20 November 2009)

• -ES1[8.00am - 9.15am]
• -EST2 [10.00am - 11.00am]
  

Monday(23 November 2009)

• - Mathematics1 [8.00 - 9.15am]
• - Mathematis2 [10.00am - 12.30pm]

Tuesday(24 November 2009)

• - Islamic Studies1(8.00 - 10.00am)
• - Islamic Studies2 (2.00 - 3.40pm)

Wednesday(25 November 2009)

• - Additional Mathematics1(8.00 - 10.00am)
• - Additional Mathematics2(2.00 - 4.00pm)

Monday(30 November 2009)

• - Biology2(8.00 - 10.30am)
• - Biology1(11.00am - 12.30pm)
• - Biology3 (2.00 - 3.30pm)

Thursday(3 December 2009)

• - Physics1(8.00 - 9.15am)
• - Physics 2(10.00am - 12.30pm)
• - Physics3(2.00 - 3.30pm)

Tuesday(8 December 2009)

• - Chemistry1(8.00 - 9.15am)
• - Chemistry2(10.00am - 12.30pm)
• - Chemistry3(2.00 - 3.30pm)

OK...
All my stuffs are ready. My pens, ruler, pencils and erasers are all packed in my pencil box... Just that I need to revise a bit, then I'm done.

*chuckles* and now my sister wants to use the laptop to do her "stuffs"(which usually involves Micheal Jackson, her myspace ,which she just set up, and what not) and I think I better give her.

Ok, this is all that I can write about for now...

will return on the night of  8th December. Till then...

"May the force be with you.."

And so we go...to bed XDDDDDD

Hayate Ayasaki's birthday

lol his birthday is today... XD
will edit more..

Graduation 9/11/2009

will edit more about my graduation here ^^

A week of pure exercising XD

wow~! XD

This week was a purely exercising one! XPPP

what a hectic week... @@;;

lol hey...what a really busy week ehh...
its nearing SPM...but I don't think I'm freaking out(should I be O.o?)...for now maybe...
will update again ^^

Alot happened this past few days, weeks...

hey guys ^^
yeah its been awhile since I last wrote my previous entry...I have been busy the whole 2-3 weeks as i last counted...
alot had happened...I'll list down just the ones I remember...
-sent my AFS application form.
-got to know that i failed my SPM trial BM.
-alot of my teachers  were worried of me
-explain(don't know how many time) why i blacked out during the trial, the night before I stayed up late studying till midnight, woke up late(around 6.30am), bus was gonna arrive any second, rushed bathing. A bit like that.

will update and try to remember more..

Something...that i just realized...

well, today i went to school(heck alot of my friends ask me...why DO I come to school when I don't even have any papers to do XD)

Didn't think much about it.... Was feeling ok, of course.

After we were sent to our temporary classroom(the Form 5's were given Blok B room's like the Physics Lab, Chemistry lab, etc.) to do our paper(of course i didn't have any papers...that's why alot of people ask XDDD) so I went to the Library to catch on some work..

Suddenly...

She appeared...*snaps finger* like that...i think my heart skipped a beat..

well, both of us decided to stay in the Library(mostly ccause I wanted to finish sorting out my tuition papers, which was suppose to do yesterday but..you know..Raz's problem)

SO she started to read some books while I did my work...chatted a bit with her..then came the awkward silence..luckily i had work to keep me busy...

after a while, Amir came in...i manage to finish half my work and thought= hey, if they don't have anything to do..why dont I give them something XD

so i gave Amir a few Add maths questions while she got moden maths ones...

felt hungry, went to canteen with her...ate and discussed a few stuffs with her(about Raz and her problem, family problem, etc.). Finished and went back to Library...

jumping to the walking home part...

talked with her...

reached her home...said goodbye to her..and ran back to school... on the way...i realized...that she is really likes another guy...

i better get out of the way...I'm not good enough for her anyway ^^ I'm a nobody...

will continue again...

A chance of a life time....

....

...wow...

=___=;;

yup....that's how I feel rite now...

here's a short story abt what had happened last nite when me, my mom and dad sat down to eat dinner(at about 9.00pm i think)...

my mom manage to got to the AFS place and whent to talk to the person who called me...(I think her name was Azrin..yeah i guess that's right)

anyway, point is...I got a place in going to Japan(yeah~!!!! XDD) the place that i wanted to go...but i did not manage to get the scholarship... *sigh*=__=;;

so now, I have to pay at least :-

=============================================================

RM24000++

........

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you know what happened at school today...?
met Raz..and she was crying...
it's about her best friend that she loved, who lives in Australia, Caelum(sorry, i dont know how to spell his name...but i call him Kalim..i think)
he has pancreatic cancer...and only has less than a month too live...
Raz reallt did love him...wanted to show everything about Malaysia...
looks like it will but just a dream...

yeah...well, continue later...

*sigh in relief* ahh~~ finally XDD

*yawns* wow O_o... imagine that...2 weeks before, 2 weeks after raya...straight got trials DDDX *sigh* yeah well, its over!! ^^ ...for now anyway(nooooooo~~~!!!! DX) *sigh* doesnt feel much of Raya this year...maybe coz of SPM la... btw, got a call from AFS(American Field Service) today...you know..the exchange program...yeah well..i might get the year program...(YEAH~~~! XDDDD) but it has to be paid (awww~~ D8) yeah well...will continue on thgis...like my other posts... *SIGH* -__-::::

...well...kinda sad, eh...?

when something that we like comes to an end, it kinda makes us feel sad...right ? ah well, Raya has finally arrived and we should be joyous at a day like this.. ^^ though...my heart doesn't feel that way... will continue more on this...no time to finish -__-

p/s = Check out the guy in the baju melayu XD

A small decision, a big impact...

Have you guys ever make a decision..which seems to be a small one at first but in the end it turned out to be one that had an effect on your entire life... =_=? Yeah well...of course most of us already have been through and/or going through it now.. ^^ will edit more on this post....

A week has passed!! 8D

lol looks like a week of Ramadhan has passed ^^ how's everyone doing ?? I mean to those who are fasting of course XDD well, of course im fine..just that I've been very busy with studying(mostly Add Maths...I realy suck ar it XD) *sigh* my internet connection is realy stupid sometimes...already called the tech, he said that its the 3G that's the problem, not the modem... is currently using my uncle's com... will correct it when have time -___- and so we go.

The 1st day of a wonderful month ^^

lol yeah alright!!! Looks like Ramadhan"s here again XD Will edit more here, later i guess... Cant write much cause I'm afraid my internet connection will get disconnected after a few mins... will correct my blog later ^^ (i hope its soon @@) And so we go...

A suspected Influenza A(H1N1) case.

*cough* I don't think I'm well today...
Let me tell you just a bit about my day today...

Today, I woke up really late(I think it was about 6.45am). Yeah, i know that...I was up, I think, until about midnight, then I slept. I was..umm...studying I think. The details is a bit fuzzy to me right now, so maybe I'll remember later..

[30th July 2009] The greatest gift ever wanted...

I am very lucky...

To be alive[a gift the One God(Allah S.W.T)] for all this years. To be able to breath in this clean world that He has created, to be able to see all that He has made, to feel what has been laid out in front of me...

To have a wonderful family that I care for(and who loves me back).

To be blessed to have a fortunate life that other's would dream of.

My name is Mohammad Firdaus bin Khalili.

and this is my story...

['== Chapter 1 ==']

+ \30th July 2009/ +
...

whoa~! Did i just write that... O.o?!!

haha... XDD didn't really knew I had that in me... XP

ok... now its time for the real thing...

Peace be upon you, reader... ^^

My name, as already stated above, is Mohammad Firdaus bin Khalili...but please, do call me Ben[it's kind of an old nickname my old friends used to call me. Based on my fav jedi master, Obi Wan Kenobi(which was also known as Ben Kenobi during the 4th Star Wars trilogi; A New Hope) which my friends knew about]...

I'm a mixed Malay-Chinese(make that 3/4 Malay, 1/4 Chinese XDDD... my grandmother on my father's side was a chinese convert) ...of course, I am a proud Muslim(hope to be a true one someday)...(hey, dont think that me being a Muslim, makes me a terrorist, have any connection with Al-Qaeda, or anything that is associated with terrorism! I hate war and fighting!!!)

Today, 30th July, I have just turned 17 years old...and I am grateful for it... ^^ (which also means I'm taking my Sijil Pelajaran Malaysia(SPM) this year...arghhh~!!! DX not ready~~~ PX )

I now currently live in Shah Alam. Selangor in the country of Malaysia. And is schooling at Sekolah Menengah Kebangsaan Bukit Jetutong(SMK BJ), Form 5 Epsilon(2009).

As always, people have ambitions, hopes, dreams... whatever you call it...but for me...

I'm currently in a standstill...

I DO NOT know what I want to be when I grow up... T^T seriously...but I do know what I am interested in...Computer Engineering

, Medicine, and Culinary artistic  (just to make it sound nicer XD) .

So, those are the 3 fields that I'm interested in...can't make up my mind though... @__@

but I'll figure it out...eventually... XD

well, that's just a little of my introduction... ^^ sorry for the late update, my internet connection has been going on -off this past few weeks and I really don't know what's going on... =__=;;

Don't know till when I'll edit my other posts...but I'll try my very best.. :)

And so we go...

"...but what ever happens...

...I'll protect you

From those.. ...who want to make u cry...

I'll...

...protect you, Ojou~sama.

~ Hayate Ayasaki(HnG)